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Post by Lily Ariel Linders on Sept 4, 2012 2:41:47 GMT 1
Odd thing to find, ten years after writing it... I was rearranging my crafting room tonight and found some old papers, including this short little poem I wrote when I was 19 or 20, and was particularly depressed... reading this actually brought back an unpleasant memory, but... I'd like to think that the writing is at least decent... even given the subject matter.
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Alone by Lily Ariel Black
She sits alone Her eyes unseeing Her ears unhearing She cries alone Her tears flowing Her body trembling Heart broken, soul shattered on the floor She lays alone Her blood flowing Her eyes close and She dies alone
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I must say, I am very glad I no longer feel that broken...
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Post by Warhammer Gorvar on Sept 4, 2012 13:39:36 GMT 1
I'm glad you got out of that stupor Lily. This is rpetty heavy stuff.
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Post by Lily Ariel Linders on Sept 4, 2012 22:49:39 GMT 1
I was in a really bad mind-set then; that was my first year at University, and I was going through a very rough time - I went through a similar rough time a couple years ago the summer before I started dating Linders, but it didn't come as close to breaking me this more recent time - probably because having Linders' emotional support really helped this time, and I didn't have that nine years ago...
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Post by jklinders on Sept 5, 2012 1:16:56 GMT 1
I can't have helped you half as much as you helped me Lily. I was feeling pretty useless and depressed after months of unemployment by that time.
Let's just say we helped each other.
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Post by Lily Ariel Linders on Sept 5, 2012 2:03:17 GMT 1
Timing's off a bit there, babe... the unemployment thing happened after we'd been dating for a month already. And all I did was try to keep you smiling - purely selfish reasons, too, I might add - your smiles make me happy, so it was all for my benefit that I kept you smiling... really... ;D *hugs*
The emotional support I meant was the way you kept me from spiralling into self-loathing and insanity even before we were officially a couple - which just served to make me fall more in love with you before I had any real right to... so I was very very doomed if you had decided to not let me be your girlfriend... *raises one eyebrow*
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Post by Mister Buch on Sept 5, 2012 12:52:47 GMT 1
Hey Lily, you should put this on your website.
Also - is that your actual full name? I just noticed, if it is. Im so used to nicknames here.
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Post by jklinders on Sept 5, 2012 14:08:27 GMT 1
That would be a pseudonym. Out of politeness and privacy I am choosing to refer to her by username on this site.
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Post by Lily Ariel Linders on Sept 5, 2012 14:09:53 GMT 1
Hey Lily, you should put this on your website. Also - is that your actual full name? I just noticed, if it is. Im so used to nicknames here. I will put it in my Den of Iniquity, as soon as I have the time to fiddle with the settings... As for my name, Lily Ariel Black is not my real name - but it is the name I use for my Alternate Identity (my pen name, screen name, Online presence in general). It's to the point where, in reality, I am both Lily Ariel Black and ___ __ ___ . And no, I am not going to reveal my True Name - names hold too much power! Muaha-ha-ha... mine is an evil laugh!! ;D
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Post by jklinders on Sept 5, 2012 14:13:50 GMT 1
She's right you know.
It's pretty common in mythology that demons and other underworld spirits are vulnerable to those who know their true names. I don't know how this is relevant in Lily's case but there may be some truth to the myth somewhere.
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Post by Mister Buch on Sept 5, 2012 14:19:34 GMT 1
I see. But you genuinely are J K Linders, though, right?
Riiiiiiiight?
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Post by jklinders on Sept 5, 2012 14:23:44 GMT 1
I see. But you genuinely are J K Linders, though, right? Riiiiiiiight? Maybe I told you what you wanted to hear bwahahahahahahahahaha
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Post by Lily Ariel Linders on Sept 5, 2012 14:24:08 GMT 1
Maybe in my case, it might be because every time I heard my full name spoken aloud it meant I was in big big trouble. I seem to recall my mother only ever used my full name when angry with me once - and I think it was the one time I actually failed a test in school... got a really bad score on a Science test (but more than made up for it with my English Literature and History scores ;D).
As for the whole demon / underworld spirit reference - dammit, Linders, you weren't supposed to have figured that out! How can I subvert you now that you know?? *pouting slightly*
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Post by Warhammer Gorvar on Sept 5, 2012 14:48:29 GMT 1
Ah damnit...i could;ve asked if you were related to Jack Black.
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Post by Lily Ariel Linders on Sept 5, 2012 15:07:27 GMT 1
Unfortunately not - but that man is hilarious... especially in this video:
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Post by Lily Ariel Linders on Sept 5, 2012 15:12:00 GMT 1
Hey Lily, you should put this on your website. Aaand... done. It is now on my website. I actually had to get into a minor argument with my website! It did not want to accept the settings / layout I was trying to put on it... But, as usually happens with I get into an argument with my computer, I won - only this time I didn't have to get Linders to defend my technological honor against the computer... ;D
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